Weird feeling of Impostor Syndrom

I personally think the concept of Impostor syndrom kinda weird. When I arrived here I believed thing happened for reason, including my presence here. All my experience and passion brought me to this place. Doctor in Science Management ITB.

However, the feeling being tested and tested. I mean, how could one even think that they deserved the place, when they being tested and tested. When the environment actually doubt him. When they gossiping you after simple mistake that actually just being made for the sake of some trial not sharing something too obvious?

I visited a councelor (psychologist) 3 weeks ago. She concluded that I looking for validation too much. It is something that actually I agree of. I always problematize the people’s need to prove other people’s words. Yet, I’m in a place when people doubt me, when I’m in the constant battle to complete my work. I then, need to show up.

How is it possible not to show that I deserve it?