Things I would had done for the sake of my pride

1. I would had declined the offer to be a full time lecturer after I had been rejected the year before
2. I would had resigned from my doctoral study, having to obey the request to join the elective class (which not obligatory that semester) and spent more energy, yet still I couldn’t get A

Yet, I accepted the offer and meet wonderful kids afterwards, I still continued my study, not really because I’m strong but I’m just getting numb. I’ve spent so much already and I think my time is limited. I had to swallow my pride over and over these days.