I decided to embrace conflict. I cost me things, but it’s ok I guess

I’ve been in some situation in which I looked happy, content, and all. But deep down I was depressed. It felt worse when I’m alone. It happened since senior highschool when I was seriously active in an organization. Came to think about the situation, I was bullied and intimidated. But I remained silent

Lately, I speaked up my mind. I did’t remain silent: I complained and told about the situation the some person I might concerned. Trying to discuss this.

You know, this kind of situation are not always comfortable being talked: not anyone could understand especially if you are an adult. Bullying are like a situation that could only happened for kids.

Turned out, this is that particular situation (and maybe this is why I wrote it down here). Lately I earned some cost for speak up. Cost of making confrontation . There is good relationship that seems to be broken. Yet come to think of it right now, that’s ok. Now it feels like a better situation than remain silent and accept the situation.

I kinda text book guy somehow, but some literature support this decision. But maybe you should try to. Not to resist potential conflicts and let the issue consume you, instead, you embrace them. Try to get the resolution, try to have dialectics. The resolution might not really be ideal; It cost things (in my case it does cost thing); it might cost the settlement, cost the path you are up to. but it’s better than to keep silent. I lost the ship, but then again, it’s better now. Also my mental condition :)