Being a Beta Male (If such a thing even exist)

I used to be shy little kid. Non-assertive. Avoid conflicts and everything (actually, maybe I am still). I used to remain silent if people throw some bad words, hurt me in ways. Then sometimes, when I’m alone I felt hurt. The words keep on spinning. Under some circumstances, the memory appear, without being spoken.

Then I decided to change. I challenge people around me, I challenge some hardest guys I’ve had worked with. Argue with them, try to explain why’d I thought my arguments were valid. I think it happened after I read these two books about ones of hardest guys who ever lived: Steve Jobs and Michael Jordan. They were pain in the ass for their colleagues infamously known as rude and all. Yet they respect people who have arguments and can ellaborate them clearly.

I don’t know in what stage I am now. Still far from being success, far from having clear communication approach. For now I think, I’ve been a different person myself. I am a two different personalities; when I’m working and when I’m socializing.